I want to talk today about two
of the things we fear about this season: Silence and darkness. Both of these
things that seem at first like things to be avoided at all costs are also necessary
to give this season the depth of meaning that it has.
I’m not just talking about silent moments, either. I was editing
this sermon last night after watching the kids all day, and I was desperate for
silence, but Elias was still awake, Kate was watching TV, I was overwhelmed by
noise and touch. Seriously, why do the kids have to always be touching me? I mean, I love snuggling on the couch for an
hour, but why does one of them need to be sitting on my chest for the next
five?
Anyway, that reprieve of silence at the end of the day is
obviously good, but there is something even more meaningful about silence that takes
us from relief into uncertainty before encroaching even upon discomfort.
Silence, like darkness, provides depth to the human experience, it forces us to
confront things as they really are; it turns our autopilot off and forces us to
think, to feel, and to live in the uncertainty.
Yesterday was the shortest day of the year—the winter
solstice. For six months, things have been getting darker and darker. With the
encroaching darkness comes a weightiness to the season, a certain gravitas that
we can feel whenever we wrest ourselves away from the shiny lights of commercialism
and the busy-ness of responsibility. Perhaps this is why we fill our lives with so much this time of year. We fear the
heaviness of the dark and the pregnant silence that comes with it. It is a
season that bears the hopes and fears of all the years, as the hymn (O Little
Town of Bethlehem) says.
God doesn’t show up in a light, airy moment. The Gospel
accounts of the lead up to Jesus’ birth, the birth itself, and its
repercussions all bear witness to a world in the throes of a long night. A
petulant king fights back against a dangerous child—it sounds like The
Mandalorian… or America 2019; history just circles back in on itself. The hopes and fears of all the years are met
in thee tonight.
Today we read about Zechariah, the father of the John,
who would become known as John the Baptist, cousin to Jesus. Zechariah receives
a promise from an angel that he and his wife will have a son in their old age.
Sound familiar? History circles back around—Abraham and Sarah become Zechariah
and Elizabeth. But she couldn’t have been that
old; after all, her sister, Mary, must have only been a teenager. So, in
Zechariah’s case, his lack of belief seems like it has less to do with
biological impossibility and more to do with mistrust of the unknown. Who doesn’t,
really? Whose first reaction to angels wouldn’t be that they were being punked?
Who doesn’t doubt?
Still, because of his response, Zechariah is rendered
mute. He can’t speak from the time the angel proclaims the coming child to the
moment of his naming. That silence is itself a theological statement on how we
are to wait. Zechariah is not being punished. He is being forced, like so many
before and after him, to experience the silence between words where God moves.