I’m going to begin
with an excerpt from Madeleine l’Engle’s Walking
on Water. It’s a longer read—an entire page—but I think the upshot requires
the context. So, here we go:
* * *
God, through the angel Gabriel, called on
Mary to do what, in the world’s eyes, is impossible, and instead of saying, “I
can’t,” she replied immediately, “Be it unto me according to thy Word.”
God is always calling on us to do the
impossible. It helps me to remember that anything Jesus did during his life
here on earth is something we should be able to do, too.
When spring-fed Dog Pond warms up enough for
swimming, which usually isn’t until June, I often go there in the late
afternoon. Sometimes I will sit on a sun-warmed rock to dry, and think of Peter
walking across the water to meet Jesus. As long as he didn’t remember that we
human beings have forgotten how to walk on water, he was able to do it.
If Jesus of Nazareth was God become truly
man for us, as I believe he was, then we should be able to walk on water, to
heal the sick, even to accept the Father’s answer to our prayers when it is not
the answer that we hope for, when it is No. Jesus begged in anguish that he be
spared the bitter cup, and then humbly added, “but not as I will, Father; as
you will.”
In art, either as creators or participators,
we are helped to remember some of the glorious things we have forgotten, and
some of the terrible things we are asked to endure, we who are children of God
by adoption and grace.
In one of his dialogues, Plato talks of all
learning as remembering. The chief job of the teacher is to help us to remember
all that we have forgotten. This fits in well with Jung’s concept of racial
memory, his belief that when we are enabled to dip into the intuitive,
subconscious self, we remember more than we know. One of the great sorrows
which came to human beings when Adam and Eve left the Garden was the loss of
memory, memory of all that God’s children are meant to be.
Perhaps one day I will remember how to walk
across Dog Pond.
* * *
I look at Peter,
watching Jesus walk on the water toward him on the sea, and I am reminded for
the thousandth time that God doesn’t call us to do things that are easy or
convenient; God doesn’t even call us to do things that are hard. God calls us
to do the impossible. Walk on water, Peter.
Then, he does. If
only for a time. Lost in the shuffle of “Why did you doubt, Peter?” is the fact
that Peter walked on water for a significant longer period of time than any
other human being in history. Peter did something impossible. This is the
future toward which God is calling each of us.
Madeleine l’Engle
is one of my heroes. She’s on the very shortest list of top influencers on my
life, and so this was not the first, and will not be the last, time that I use
her in a sermon. I often recommend that people pick up her writing and take a
good dive into it, but I’ve also come to realize that many people don’t jive
with l’Engle’s thinking. She’s an artist and a writer—a very particular kind of
theologian. Her words are art.
So, when she
writes about walking on water and seeking to remember how to walk across Dog
Pond, I’m afraid this is either something you get or you don’t, and I don’t
quite know what to do about that. A right-minded physicalist will no doubt
point out that l’Engle, who died in 2007, never did walk on that pond, spending
her whole life waiting in vain, and yet, that’s remotely the point. We all
spend our lives doing things, waiting on things, yearning after things, and the
question is really, “What are you waiting for?” Are you waiting for something
good, something great, or some kind of probable impossible, like walking on water
in a pond in your backyard?
Which is the thing
worth waiting on? The possible… or the probable impossible?