Saturday, September 30, 2023

The missing grace ( Or why wrestling with scripture we don't like is way more reverent than ignoring it)

Preached at Peace Lutheran, Clayton and St. Peter Lutheran, Garnavillo

Philippians 2:1-13

           I am going to preach on the Philippians hymn today, which I do with some measure of trepidation, because I feel I should be up-front about this from the start: I don’t particularly like this passage. Maybe this is very familiar scripture to you, it is for me (now), but once upon a time, I was sitting in a class at seminary and the professor told us that we would be meditating on this scripture to begin class… every period… all semester long. Our professor expected that we would already know this scripture pretty well, seeing as it was so commonly read in church, which was news to me (who had a degree in Religion at the time), but the professor also said we would see and hear new things when we meditated on this passage over and over… and over again.

            Perhaps you all have experienced the sensation of repeating a word ad nauseum until it loses its meaning—a phenomena that is called semantic satiation? Well, what I experienced with this passage is what I am going to call theological satiation. Rather than opening up new thoughts, ideas, and possibilities, the more I read, the less meaning I found. It began to feel like meaningless ideas that I was obligated to nod along with, because that was what it meant to treat the scripture with the reverence it deserved.

            “What word stuck out to you today?” the professor would ask.

            “Humbled,” I would think for the seventh time.

            “And what image do you see when you hear the text?”

            “Nothing. Meaninglessness. The void.”

            These were all things I wouldn’t say, so I mostly didn’t say anything at all, which—looking back—was a huge mistake, because I was so fearful of saying what I truly felt (which was nothing) that it kept me from being honest. And whenever we are lying, or faking it, or whatever, because we feel obligated to do something or be something or think something, it is precisely then that we are not giving the scripture the reverence it deserves. I forgot in that class that all scripture is meant to be wrestled with—that’s what faithfulness looks like—not ignoring it, but wrestling—confronting what I found to be, frankly, boring.


            So, today I have the opportunity to re-enter this scripture from a different perspective. There is a lot of good stuff here. My professor was right about that, but the Philippians Song (as it is called) is really a summation of everything that we hold in the faith—and it’s all very heady and theological—and neither my Religion degree nor my Masters in Divinity have made me particularly interested in theoretical theology. I suspect this is one reason why I work at camp—I’d rather be out doing things.

            But it is worth understanding why we do the things we do—and it is important to check ourselves against our tendency to do what’s best only for us, and Philippians 2 does help us in that regard. These are passages about being humble, like Jesus was humble. “Let each of you look not to your own interests, but to the interests of others,” writes Paul (Phil 2:4). Now this resonates with me. In fact, after a while, it was the only line in the entire passage that still felt fresh. I can get behind an ethos that is about putting others before myself. This undergirds everything we do as a church and as a camp; everything is for the sake of those who need it most—for the child who has not known enough love, for the parent who sees growth in their camper.

90% of Ewalu parents report that their campers see improved self-confidence after a week at camp. 90%! Perhaps this may sound strange, but I believe that humility starts with self-confidence. You have to be confident enough in yourself to let go. There is this maxim, “Fake it until you make it.” That’s just about the opposite of what I’m talking about. Instead, know that through Christ you are able to do anything. You were created to be exactly who you are. You are enough. Given that God created you to be you, now choose to humble yourself for others who do not yet see it. That is humility. It is a mark of confidence in the right things.

That is a two-part lesson we teach at Ewalu: You are enough, now go give yourself away for a world that needs you. And it isn’t easy! Paul writes lines like this: “Let the same mind me in you that was in Christ Jesus” as if that is straightforward to follow. I don’t know about you, but I find myself wondering: How exactly do I have the same mind as Jesus? Can I really take up my cross and follow? What would that even look like?

Asking this question led me to a realization, which I had only two days ago. So, I guess my professor was right—I can still find new things after so many readings of the scripture, though perhaps this is not what they meant. I realized why I have zoned out this passage for over a decade. In these verses, Paul is heavy on theology and big on humility, but absent is another theme in so much of his writing: A thing we call “grace”. And I don’t know about you, but flowery language about faith is unapproachable for me without grace. I need grace even more than I need humility. I need to know that when I fail to have the same mind as Jesus (and boy, do I!), that there is something there to catch me.

I don’t get there in Philippians 2. And that’s OK, there’s plenty of other scripture about grace if I just keep reading, but it struck me that perhaps some of you are in the same shoes as well. And I know that many of our campers are in those shoes. They need grace not every so often, not just on occasion, but ALL THE TIME, because our awareness of our inadequacy never goes away. I believe that one of the primary reasons our campers see such growth in self-confidence is because of grace—because (perhaps for the first time) they come to understand that they are loved whether they are perfect or not—and that frees something in their souls. That self-confidence is born from the cross where all our brokenness is put to death. But next, like Easter morning, they rise! Our campers become Easter-people, and Easter-people are humble people because they know that they are dead, yet through Christ they live.

Which brings me to the final realization I had about this passage, which came to me also just this week: This is not an Easter passage. Which is OK, again not every passage in scripture needs to be about the empty tomb, but for those of us who are Christians in the year of our Lord 2023, we must be Easter-people. We must proclaim not just the law that drives us to Jesus Christ, but also the full power of the Gospel that is marked by the cross and the empty tomb. And I wonder if this passage has any room for we-Easter-people. Or is this just more hedging of the law? Because, ultimately, the good news is not only what Jesus Christ has done—dying on the cross, rising on Easter morning—but also what his death and resurrection mean for you.

This is why I’m going to quarrel with Paul one last time about how this passage ends. I do not believe, as Paul says, that you need to “work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.” Or at least I believe we all do that anyway—that’s like telling a worrier to worry. OK, check! Rather, we need to know that our fear and trembling is met by a God who gathers lost sheep and says, “I got you!” And who preaches “The first shall be last and the last shall be first,” and all those other parables of grace that we have been reading these last several weeks.

I wonder now if that isn’t the best lesson that this scripture has taught me. After a dozen years in ministry, I now have context for what was once theory. There is value in the law as a tool to drive us to Jesus Christ, but to leave anybody with the impression that God is only going to meet them halfway—that they need to try harder—to become humble like Christ is humble—well, that’s just nonsense. Worse, it makes a mockery of the cross. After a dozen years reflecting on this passage, I realized for the first time that it needs way more context, because for many folks it might be the only chance to hear the good news and I’m not going to waste it!

I am acutely aware of this both when I go into congregations and preach (and let me tell you, I was handed a preaching text on divorce last January that was not the one impression I wanted to give to that congregation), but also I am aware of how this works for campers who come to Ewalu for the first time. It is OK for campers to hear about their need for a Savior if we deliver on the promise that there is one for them. And it is OK for campers to learn that they are sinners (which they already know, by the way) if we help them meet the God who takes away their sins. But it is not OK to leave campers with the impression that their salvation depends on their own holiness, or that there is something broken in them that cannot be fixed, hoping that someday down the line they discover that that fix will come in Jesus Christ. We do much better than that!

At camp, we seek to embody grace, because Jesus does too. So, I’m sorry to Paul with his beautiful Philippians hymn, but I am going to make even this about grace. Because I need it. And so do you. Because I do not believe that God is interested in us spending any more of our time working out our salvation with fear and trembling than we already are. Because Jesus Christ didn’t die for us to meet him halfway. Because the power of the resurrection is the power that inspires campers and their parents, camp counselors, and every person who steps foot at Ewalu to understand why Ewalu as a place apart matters. Because we are Gospel-people. We are Jesus-people. We are Easter-people. And if I get one chance to preach with you, I’m not going to spend a moment saying anything else.

And that’s maybe the best lesson I’ve learned since seminary.

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